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One thing I have desired of THE LORD, that I will seek after;

that I may dwell in the house of THE LORD all the days of my life,

to behold the beauty of THE LORD, and to enquire in his temple.

Psalms 27:4

11:29 PM
morning started great!!

went sch wif jie [[i*den]] hahaha!! that guy iz juz hilarious!! he really makes da tripz to sch on thur fun!! hahaha

n he tied his hair!!

actually today wanted to pon drawing class but coz needed to draw teh army machines so i didn't pon. haha da army machines hard to draw lor!! my drawing sux!! nsg sing draw wow.. iz like u see liao wanna sian diao coz it iz like zo nice nice!!!~

joe, ivan, juju [[*honey pie]] n sijie waited for me. den ivan left den da rest of us went tm. at bus stop met chang yong ... man iz that guy still bones!! hahaa. zo we all happily, chatting loudly ok more like i was toking loudly tru da whole bus ride that da bus driver uncle also say why i tok nt thirsty one!! hahah

JOE IZ OFFICALLY MY CRAB BROTHER!!~

initial D rox!!!! nice!!!! people go n seee!!!!! must see!!! all da guyz r zo cooL!!~ n the carz jus wanna be zo nice lor!!!! arh!!!! hahaah!! i wanna watch again or i think i wait for da dvd to come out la!! haha yy, kazumii n frenz watched da same movie as us. zo did dragon boat girl doreen n friend!! hahaha

we siting arrangement was from left to right [[*joe]] [[i*con]] [[ju*ju]] [[yi*sheng ]] [[flannery*]] [[kc*]] [[lego*]] [[shi*fu]] [[jam*jie]] [[ mel*]] [[dan*]]

hahah thru da whole movie me n joe tok alot of crap that guy sure noes alot abt da cars!! n me n juju also.. hahah we 3 keep munching on popcorns n juju n concon keep making alot of noises actually i think i make more!! but da movie da ending abit da sian diao lor.. any wae nt wanting to spoil it for anyone hu haf nt watch.

ppl once again go n watch~!!!~

hahaha

take care

God bless

lOve con

12:47 AM
[[* slacking my butt away]]

i think i am going to fail this term.

11:09 PM
juju!! concon loves u to bitz!! thankz for da photoshop cd n da brushes n font!! u rox babe!! i love u!!

*yes i am baba everywhere!!

i just can't control my eating.
can someone just come and help me control!!!!

*i am no alien from mars!!!~


lego bro & con*mei - i dun look like alien!! i am just baba!!



jam*jie & connie*mei



ma pebble*kor & con*gem


1:35 AM
jillian came to tok to me online.

i was shocked la can!

tot they forgot abt me!!

miss dat babe to death man!! her crappiness n stuffz!! haahah

*miss da punktards!!

she sent me da pic!! hahaha

it iz hilarious can!! even though i look stupid inside .. tot why not share da laughter wif everyone haha!! zo here it iz:


punktardz :]

*this tot came to my mind.

it was something that i learned at yp on sat it goes like diz

[[ how do u noe that u are addicted to something?! well u will experience withdrawal syndromes when da thing is removed from u]]

12:32 AM
thanks for all those people who have come and comfort me.

con iz okay!! i just had to sort out sum stuffz.

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today went jogging!! timing iz 1436. i was actually like very happy la it was only until when i told shifu my timing he say i may haf run less one round. den i started to doubt did i really run 6 rdz !? die tml muz go n try again!! to prove that i really did 2.4 in 1436.

con diz whole diet thing seriously is not working lor. i am going to give myself till da end of da yr to lose weight!!!~

i think i put on weight after starting to binge since last wk. i have to stop binge-ing

i dunno why i binge also la. iz like i go home see food, EAT!!! at schoool got break, EAT!! den everytime also hungry!! i think iz mentally!!! - my brain siao liao da hormones all go da wrong places hahaha!!

haix*

con u better get serious on ur diet lor!!!

i want to prove to shifu that when he go into ns for 3 wkz con will nt put on weight or at least maintain la or if can lose weight !!! yes!! baba must go!!!!!

today had another man2man tok wif shifu near my hze da block downstairs. haha seriously with shifu i can really crap man!!

*shifu thankz for da company n thx for senting me home!! shifu u rox!!

i guess coming to poly iz really different from sec sch life.

i miss those times when i was protected.

con diz few wkz haf to rush projects like nutz!!

but now i just haf to depend on God more!! yes n i will!!

may The Lord gif me da strength to carry on!! :]

11:19 PM
[[ * happily sitting at a corner alone ]]

[[ * concon is a eating machine that can't stop ]] - i just want to eat my life away.

4:15 PM
ytd went to jiayi hze for bbq..!! shifu n i did da cooking..

i ate like a pig!!! as usual

i feel like this few dayz i keep eating n eating n eating i dunnno why iz like i am just covering up for something. trying to distract my mind not to think of something. i dunnno why.

I AM A PIG!!!~

hahahaha!!

the nite ended quite badly. my dad was very pissed that i went home late n went to jiayi'z hze n fetch me. n went home he n mom combined forces n scolded me. wow. i just took it as it goes in n it goes out.

n my mom say that she was very disappointed with me.

i dunno la iz like i am like reblling like mad n i dun feel thing. i just dun feel bad like last time abt rebelling. last time when my parenst scold me i will like cry like mad. but now woohoo~ different story man!!

i gues this iz what they call immune to sin.

i am like very lost now. dunno what to do. i also dun one to think. later i think more.

i didn't go to church today.

i feel like i am like running away from God n i dunno why.

i feel like crying

i know the problem is me.

how do i solved it?!

[[ *i have chanegd ]] - for da worse

1:59 PM
jie jie is sick hope he gets well soon!!

today iz a day to slack!! hehehehe!!

going yp now!! iz has been ages man!! miss those yp ppl!! gotta blast!!

*i was pondering on

liking someone.

sometimes it doesn't mean that the person have to like u back.
just seeing the person u like happy is good enough.

11:16 PM
[[ * no one can replace you ]]

8:59 PM
:]

today was fun!! hahah i felt like i had sports and wellness lesson sa whole morning [[ jogged 4 rdz, went to gym den had badminton!! my brother racket rox man no wonder he dun wanna share hahah]] , den i went for a entertaining show by shifu in da afternoon hahaha!! [[ he pei me go library photocopy notes - that chap iz funny la!! i am sure going to miss him till nutz when he goes *sobz* ]]

we had our man2man talk today but i think what i said hoped make sense to him.

*anyway shifu i will go n check my information rite den tell u k!!

den had model making!! haha talk alot of crap today at class with dennis jie, cherie mummy and grace tai tai and nsg sing. nsg sing this babe can really do da whole hp thingy man her one iz like perfect lor..!! u rox!! wahahha

caution : *guyz beware dennis jie iz getting more gay each day i noe him. haha BEWARE!!!!

just joking la jie!! haha u getting more gay i getting more man! hahaha

den after class went home

now blogging afetr this i am going to do my mindmap and my 9 views n think my scale drawing haix next lesson den hand in la.

lesson learned today

[[* never keep homework till the end]]

:]

1:12 AM
daddy han told me this:

yi ri wei shi
zhong sheng wei fu

:]

daddy han just translated for me

one day as teacher, a lifetime as father.

hahaha means shifu my father for lifetime!! means i will be like going clubbing everyday liao lor!! hahahaha

hilarious!!!!* :D

11:30 PM
Today my post may not make sense.
Cause it was written over a period of time.
Read on …

At about 9+ ((* when i was feeling a lil blue))

I wrote this …

[[*because i was feeling very bad about what has been going on around me lately]]

I am sorry.
I know u may think I am apologising for nothing.
But I am saying sorry for just being me.
I sorry for being who I am.
I am sorry.
Please forgive if I have done things that may have hurt anyone.
I am sorry for always making the situations worse.
I am sorry for being so nosey for everything.
I am sorry for always saying the wrong things that may have hurt anyone.
I am sorry.
I dunno why I am feeling this way.

I feel very alone.
though I am like being loved and cared for by my friends all around me.
I think the problem just lies with me.

I have to go back to my thinking session and think about it.

((*con thinks deeply))

*con is confused about life.
can someone just tell me what is going on.

Then at about 10+ …

This thought came to my mind …

[[*God has the answer for all your questions con ]]

[[*pray]]

It was at about 11+ …

This song then came to my mind.

For those tears you died.
You said You'd come to share all my sorrows,
You said You'd be there for all my tomorrows,
I came so close to sending you away,
But, just like you promise, You came there to stay,
I just had to pray!

And Jesus said, Come to the water, stand by my side,
I know you are thirsty you wont be denied,
I felt every tear drop when in darkness you cried
And I strove to remind you that for these tears I died.

Your goodness so great I can't understand,
And, dear Lord, I know that all these was planned,
I know You're here now and always will be,
Your love loosed my chains, and in You I'm free,
But Jesus why me?

And Jesus said, Come to the water, stand by my side,
I know you are thirsty you wont be denied,
I felt every tear drop when in darkness you cried
And I strove to remind you that for these tears I died.

Jesus, I give you my heart and my soul!
I know now without God I'd never be whole
Saviour, You opened all the right doors
And I thank you and praise You from earth's humble shores,
Take me, I'm yours!

Then I realize …
God has just answered my question.
*I am not alone.
I am God's child.
I have Jesus in my heart!!
Even if I have lost everything I know that I still have Jesus!!
And that is all that matters

Yupz ….

now is still 11+
But con iz feeling much better :]

Things I have learned today
[[* not to be self-centred ]]

:]

9:15 PM
[[*i can't believed i have confessed.]]

[[* i feel the distance. mayb i am just sensitive ba]]

i went to gym today!! hahaha!! was fun!! leg exercising is more fun den hand ones. i think my hands one no strenght ba zo when i do iz like very like... hard. i must jia you!!! haha

thankz joe for accompanying con to gym ahahaa!!

gotta go n do my compostionz liao... hahaha!! bye!!

1:36 AM
one thing to say about guys

[[*they are heartless]]

11:46 PM
haix god-mom iz sick and tml iz her birthday hope that she getz well soon.

toke i am always here for u kk!! i love u lotz!! <3

today has lunch wif lego, jam and shifu!! n we took neoprintz hahaha! was fun la and we took alot of picz!! me n lego zhi lian in da mrt hahaha!!~ hahaha funny lor.

we went to bugis for lunch den headed to suntec to buy legi'z printer hahaha den walk walk...

this iz da link for the pictures that i took today.

http://icon1945.fotopages.com/?entry=472881

12:17 AM
yes i haf finally settle down to blog.

in a few hrz time i gotta go church liao.

con has been doing alot of thinking lately.. thinking what am i doing with my life?! my life iz given by God. and on 17 ded i haf given my life to God n allowing him to do da driving in my life. but lately i feel that i haf been like " fighting " with da Lord to do da driving wanting to do thingyz my way and not let the Lord work in my life.

i haf done wrong Lord. i haf feelingz that i shldn't have. i think about thingz that i shouldn't. i do thingz that i should't do. iz like da flesh iz taking over my life.

i rmb once uncle david mention in one of his speech that leading a life of sin iz like going up stream of a river the journery up da river iz smooth nice and relaxing but once u start allowing God in ur life iz like going against da current n u start having doubts whether leading da life faithful to the Lord iz rite coz it does not feel good. coz going against da current is like not zo smooth n relaxing iz harder u need to row harder. i feel that i haf been living a life with out God all these while and all along i tot nth was wrong coz i felt good. living in da world system. i guess it was recently when i felt that i needed da Lord i need his strenght to carry me, help me, lead me, give me water when i am dry i need the Lord.

i dunnno if i am making any sense wif da river thingy but.... i have decided to make a stand to lead a life pleasing to the Lord. ANd Lord i hope that u can help me. i know i haf said it a zillon times that i will change but this time i hope that i am serious abt it.

i dun wan to live like a double life. when i go to tp i lead a life like a non-christian doing thingyz that r wrong n leaving God out of my life den when sat n sun comes i start to panic den start to confess. i dun want this to go on. i want the Lord to be part of my life every day, every hr, every min, every sec. i need the Lord.

i guess after all running away from he Lord and such . The Lord has let me run let me run wild in da world. n letting me realized that i need him. i need his love his comfort his care.

i have been thinking of my actions too.

* i am sorry if i haf done anything to hurt anyone in any way. i am sorry :[

also i think i haf been trying too hard in same areas. i am going to take a step back from it. n just get on with life.

*[[i don't need a guy in my life]]

[[ getting my life right with da Lord iz my priority now!! nothing else matters. ]]

from now at 1255am sunday 19 june i am leaving my wild life behind n taking a step into da new life!! i am changing for da better!! everything!! yay!! :]

da new constance iz here...

12:57 AM
thursdayz iz always the most stress day...

actually didn't want to blog today but i dunno why just felt like saying crap zo here i am haahah!

today slept thru design methodoloy hahaha!! during the video slpt lor teh video tok abt crap abt painting n stuff la.. ahaha den after class had lunch den went to library to rush my mindmap. dennis he rushed his 500 wordz essay hahaha!! that funny guy la do that gay thing n frightened me in broad daylight lor!! hahaha

after that i went for drawing class... hahaha wow more homework lor!! ya i very happy!! my cylinder drawing got 70!!! hahaha at least hardwork payz off!! good thing diz wk hw no cylinder liao ahahaha!!

den met joe at 5 for gym!! gym rox man!! make me feel dam shoick the aches now everywhere shoick man!! hahaha i love gym!! going again on sat!! ahahah yay!! joe iz one funny fellow man. met his friend too call vincent that guy look very average not very fit those kind no offence man but u really can run man!!! hahahaah must say lookz can be deceiving hahaah!!

after that went home mom cooked um yogurt curry haahaha! taste weird but con likes weird stuffz!! haahaahah!!

i dunno why i keep wanting to go back to the past.
was just thinking about my life, when u got sumthing u want more. i am blessed by the Lord but i want more guess it iz just da human side of me.
i dunno why i keep talking about u even though i noe that nth can ever happen. i just i am just dreaming ba!! hahaha

con has made a new promsie to myself : * i will not like any guy until da guy like me. hahaha!!
zo con will be remaining single for the rest of my life!!

sorry ppl out there u can't go to my wedding hahaah!! coz there wun b one hahaha! taht remindz me just the other day i was asking my mom, "mummy when i get married will u cry?" den her reaction was hilarious she was like i will be singing for joy! n she did all the action n singing stuffz hahaha den con sian-diao!! hahahaha

ok i am sleeping liao..
nitex!!
:]

10:54 PM
today played badminton with members of [[*PMTB]] hahaha!!

was great!!

i run 2 roundz only today!! hahah kana scolding from shifu coz nv run 6 rounds hehe!! though it was only 2 rounds my timing sux!!

cannot take it man i have been eating alot of rubbish these dayz!!

i think i am too stress den keep eating!! this haf to stop con!!!

i think poly life iz not as relax as i tot it will be. i just slack one day n the hw will start accumlating into mountainZ!! hahahhah

haix. i think it iz time con really really start doing hw n not get distracted by thingz!! hahaha

i am just glad to be me!!

caution!! : * con is straight i am not a butch neither am i bisexual. i just behave more man well that iz just ME :) !! hehe n i like guyz.. !!

i had this weird dream ytd!! haha n i dreamed 3 times like ard abt da same thing. i think it iz funny la. i woke up n luff :D!! hahaha!!

*it is rather sad to know that shifu is going to ns soon!! *sighx!! so now we must spent as much time wif him as possible haha hmm must also give him sum time alone to do his deep-thinking la!! [[ shifu, con iz going to miss u like nutz man!! no one jog wif me liao~!!! *sobz!! rmb to book out to celebrate your birthday arh!! ]] hmm con iz actually over reacting la hahaa u haf nt go in yet still got abt 3 wkz la hahaha!! ok con cool down la!! :)

lOve con

i taught shifu what FYN is today hahaaha!!

[[*baba club]] - our slogan [[*FYB - flip your baba]]

everyday i am blessed and loved by the Lord!! :)

1:37 AM
i cried for u. i don't understand why.

11:03 PM
sat had celebration for lego birthday n belated bday of kc too!!

hahaha

sat was fun i met my princess at kovan at 1045 he came at 1055 as usual always late. den we went to eat breakfast. haha he had noodles i had a cup of disgusting soya bean drink. it tasted weird hahaa!!

den after that we made our way to harbour front mrt to meet da rest!!

haha met jam n shifu on da way!! den we went to sentosa!! woohoo!!

hahaah

went there played captainz ball, soccer, n ball games la. con iz bodo at ball games at captainz ball i can't catch ball. den at soccer con went to catch da ball n helped da other team got 2 penalty kick hahaha!! den volley ball i also keep catching da balls hahahah! when suppose to hit it away!! hahaha okay i sux at sportz la!

playing soccer con kana hit by the soccer goal thankz to sean la!! hahaha now still pain leh!!!

den we also lalala play in da water. haha but hlaf da time con was being paranoid whether dere iz jellyfish anot!! joe had rashes zo he couldn't play in da water hahaha!!

this getting tan think iz cooL... i just play here n there den walk here n there n taaadaa!! con iz burn!! hahaah

after ard evening we girlz went to bathe hahah we bathe in da open toiletz den went in to change!! was excitiing man!! da whole girlz bathing outside thing!! haahaa

den after bathing went back gathered den all da whole gang of headed to the harbour front food court!! hahaha i had sum rice n yummy ingredientz!! den we cut da cake!!!

ahah wanted to play da whipped cream one but con keep doing it but cannot come out only when YY came to da resuce that babe iz funny man! hahaha ok that joke later ...

hmm yes back to da cake cutting!! lego cried coz was too touching haahh!! da cake was yummy man! hey jam jie good job man!! u rox!! future house wife heh!? haha *wrinkz

den after that we had photo taking n den hommmeee sweet home!! con took pic wif bear in da big blue house!! shifu help me take one hahaah not clear la but i'm happiee!!! da bear rox!!

con hugging da cute bear!! :)

we took tonz of picZ!! here iz da link ppl!!*

http://icon1945.fotopages.com/?entry=465256

10:11 PM
today iz a sad day ...

con timing deproved by 3o secz!!!!!!

*SOBZ*
cry cry!!!
*sniff*

haha ok i am fine liao. ahaahhah

i am addicted to food!! can't stop eating!! sumone plz stop me!!!

tml going to sentosa very excitied!!!!

hahaha

would like to wish my swan bro HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance!!

*[[HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEGO!!!!]]


11:40 PM
haix after zo many donkey hours!! i have at last got my blog a new skin hehe!! this skin iz cute hahaha!!

today started off well. went to school with densie the sk-II guy hahaa!! he iz funny la!! he wore pink!! ok he looked great !! coz pink rox!!

today i went jogging!!! timing deproved by 3 secondz. dam sad nvm tml shld improve!! tml going to tampines sportz stadium wif shifu to jog!! eggcitied hehe!!

after jog had lunch wif shifu, rachel n wanling!! haha shifu has becum my jester now in my kapo kingdom he funny la everything also wanna join!! nvm at least i got ppl to entertain me!! haha shifu find rachel n wanling hilarious too!! hahaha

had free hand drawing n perspective drawing hahaa!! cylinders!! phobia!! hahaha ok today was fun da teacher let me go home n do zo i going to draw mei mei!!!

came home watch ants da movie n den hook on da comp. hahaha...going to slp now dam tired.

*Lord thankz for everything today!! the wind!! weeee!! thankz !! In The Lord Jesus Name Amen!!

lOve i*con

10:55 PM
haha hey i am back!!

today iz the 8th day that i haf not been jogging hahaha!!!

okay that'z bad coz con iz putting on weight liao!! haha baba con!!

well.. today had model making!! see chow!! oh he iz just getting cutier each time i see him!
today i found out that densie - da sk-II guy in my class stayz near me hahaha!!

today after class went to tampines with cherie to top up card den after that met kc n rebec.
on the da way home toke call me!! miss that babe man!!! miss mel!! miss wengyin!!! miss all church ppl!!

we tok until i bath den did hw draw cylinder again!! hahaha

while i was on the long long bus journey home i was bored so i tot why not cum up with a list of what i want in a guy!!

haha the list iz rather silly la!!

well anywae it iz just like a "dream list" la hahaah !! n i dun think any guy in this earth can haf all of this qualities la hehe!! mayb haf la !! hahah dunnnno.

okok back to the list zo here iz the list!!

guyiLIKE:

1. Christian - love God with all his heart, mind and soul
2. Humorous - can make me luff!! wahahaa
3. Caring & Sweet
4. Clean - must brush his teethz hahaa!! N BATHE EVER DAY
5. Average-looking - dun nid zo yan one la coz con also not good looking. hahaha
6. Can cook - zo can cook for me healthy food help me lose weight!! n cook chix soup when i sick!
7. Can do housework - help me pack my room!!! hahaha
8. Fit - den can jog with me!!
9. 6 pax - haha zo i can drool whenever i see him!!! hahhaa
10. Taller den me
11. Short hair
12. From NPCC - zo if we get married n haf kidz. i want to have all generation all from npcc!!
13. Can protect me - from teletabies!! n bees!! hahaa
14. Can shop - zo we can go shopping tgt!! yeah!!
15. Good listener - haha u noe la con tokz alot !!
most importantly,
LOVE ME!! - love my baba-ness even!! hahaha

i know this list is rather long n silly but this list iz just for fun la!! haha zo what iz the harm?! haha

con iz going to do my drawing of bottlez!! stick ard for more adventures in con'z life!! hahaa

9:32 PM
hey all neon people!!

6 june is kok chun birthday!!

zo we are having a celebration gathering for him kk!!

venue : TM. meet at control station at 6pm

time : 6pm.

if u are going plz msg me i*con or james kk!!

thankz !! love con!!

10:49 AM
con is feeling better now!!

thank you Lord!!

fever has gone down but throat still hurt alil la doctor say coz my tonsils are swollen causing the fever to react.

thanks for the from concern of my friendz too!! :) u guyz rox!!

con miss jogging man!!

my group members for the projects i am sorry i am not able to be of any help!!! i am sorry!!

:(

i today dun really haf alot of thingz to blog la coz mostly i am sleeping hahaha!! ZZzzzzZZZZ

now gotta do my projects!!

[[*Thank you Lord for everything!! ]]

10:16 PM
today played badminton wif the sportz clique [[*pmtb]] - meaning : pattern more than badminton. the name iz hilarious la!!

haha den run 3 roundz [[1.2km]] only coz it rained halfway!!! n my timing today sux lor run 3 roundz in 8 minz when suppose to be 7.5minz... haix nvm tml mus do better!!!

after that had lunch at mensa 2 wif the neon bunch!! had jap food!! after that me n shifu played wif the leftoverz!! n i ate sumn make shifu eat his too!! it tasted kinda good!! yummy!!

after that shifu helped styled my hair in the handicapped toilet coz i can't go to the gents n he can't go to ladies haha!! shifu style sui man!! thankz man!!

haha went late for class again!! that chow iz cute man!! crush him.. hmmm ahaha i am like crushing alot of lecturers ok only two la.. ahaha actually the denise iz kinda cute too hahaah!!

yupz.. chow tok very slow lo walk also very slow!! cute! he dismissed us early zo i went to see jy n kc n the rest play table tennis !! haha

abt 6 jy, jam, kc went for their cca training!! haha den me changyong n shifu went to see jam n jy swimming practice hahaha!!funny can!! swimming lookz kinda fun! saw huileng n mich there too!! rox on babez!! i really admire those that can stay afloat in the swimming pool haha coz if i go in i will drown lor!! haha

going to do my drawing of cylinders !! sian haha

[[ Dear Lord, i pray that u help me to be a christian a good one help me to be strong in u Lord. i feel that i play too much liao. i dun wan to play anymore Lord help me to be constant in my work n not procrastinate anymore!! Lord help me to love u more! n not be distracted by the world system n not to be dragged in!! Lord help me to keep to ur commandants!! i need your strength Lord please strengthen me in u . there are many things that i can't control but Lord i know u can. thank you Lord for everything!! ]]

((*In The Lord Jesus Name Amen))