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One thing I have desired of THE LORD, that I will seek after;

that I may dwell in the house of THE LORD all the days of my life,

to behold the beauty of THE LORD, and to enquire in his temple.

Psalms 27:4

11:44 PM

i can change to be better.
but can u give me
that chance to
change?

will you accpet the change?

5:00 PM
was reading blogs
and
i saw this at legos blog!!

i wanna thank you con for giving me
such big encouragement during ma down days?
*nod

hope con will read this... *smile*

oh man i am so touched!!
*sniff*










yes
ma dear legoakaswanbrotherakagoodfriendakaboyfriend

ure welcome!!

u know sumthing
just ytd i reading ma old sms-es
den i read some that u haf send me

it really made me luff
at the silly things that u say

i mean what im trying to say was that
i had wanted to thank u too
for also always being there
for me when im down

but guess u beat me to it!!

haha!!

anywae

THANK YOU FOR ME MA FRIEND
GLAD I HAD MET U

rmb the first time?
it was across a road at hougang
on the 17feb2005

haha
:D



9:19 PM
today had sociology tutorial
but most of the time wasnt listening
haha
cause i was worrying abt ma rendering

and the photocopy shop nv open

haix

anywae

i went to cut ma hair today!!

ya a lil thinner at the bottom
and sam amy bestie styled for me
a feminine style. *LOL

haha!!
:D

shld upload the picz when toke upload it.

:]

n oh ya

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all !!!

12:07 AM


7:54 PM




3:21 PM
itchy heart <3 want to know what is going on.





















abandon to the corner of your life . . .

12:28 AM
soon i will just be a m e m o r y. . .





















disgusted by my reflection . . .

10:42 AM
not good enough for you . . .















let love<3 for everything fill your heart
instead of hatred . . . .

10:10 PM
was browsing thru blogs
and
i found this question on someone ' s blog . . .

what would happen if the pillar..the pillar of confidence is gone?

and ma answer to that question

u will all of a sudden feel
*v e r y lost
not knowing
what to do
where to go

*very sad
dont know why but saddnes
suddenly
just come like rushing waters

-.it just suddenly flow quickly into u
and stays there.




u may ask how come i know the answer to that question
well it is coz

ma pillar of confidence has collapse . . .

now i have a question

can my pillar of confidence be built back again?

i want to depend on u. can i?

4:59 PM
am i being over sensitive over everything?

12:52 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YY!!

ma part-time shimu!!wahahaaa!!
hope u had a great tym ytd!!

hope i did a good job entertaining u!!
haha!!
:D

***

ma " l a o g o n g " can drive!!!
ytd first tym sit his car!!
dam shiock loooo!!!!
hahahahaha!!

i m a happy girl!!

***





nothing i say can change anything now.
hope we can go back to we used to be.-

you are not the only one
depending alot on
this group.

iam too
and not cause
i dont have other friends

but because you guys are really the group of people
that
look after me
care for me
love me

u all are like a family to me.

hope we can go back to we used to be.-

i love u all. <3

9:09 AM
yet another sleepless nite forhim

i waited the whole night for your sms

and at last
u replied ma sms
u blogged that you are feeling better

but

but

but

but

but

it was not to be
because


it was just all just a d r e a m

i woke up
and
i had to face the r e a l i t y again

please reply ma sms

iamreallyvery worried

12:40 AM
totheperson i talked on the phone on 20th jan 10:09pm:

con is sorry

dont be so sad can?
i also very sad when i see or hear u like that lo.

: [

con know
con may not be understanding
con may not be the sweetest talker
con may not be a good listener
con may say things to hurt u at times

but i know one thing is for sure
and that is
I AM RIGHT HERE FOR U WITH OPEN ARMS.

yes sometimes i may talk alot
ok i know that is most of the times


but anyway

i really want u to know u are not alone
u dun have to fight this battle alone

GOD IS HERE FOR U
con iz here for u

:]

im not a good listener
but for u
i will try ma best to listen to u okay?

i will lend u ma baba shoulders to cry on

i know u feel very stress
just wanna let u know

i am here
we are all here for u

:]

sorry that i have not been sensitive enuff
to ur feelings . . .


12:31 AM
tohim:
con is s o r r y
con was being insenstive to your f e e l i n g s


















i still have many things to learn


9:38 AM
big prawn.-




9:57 PM
about today
no one was at fault

it was just mainly miscommunication

it is seriously not what u think it is
it is not that i didnt want u to go with me shopping

but iz that i tot u wanted to accompany ronald
to pasir ris at first but later
didnt want to go coz u scared
no one accompany me

so i told u it is alright
i got jy to accompany me to shopping

if u haf tot i had ask jy to go shopping and not u
well i asked u ytd nite
u said u wanted to do work
so i didnt want to disturb u
and i know u are not feeling well.



if u had tot i shouted at u coz i was angry
i wasnt
i was more confused when u left me sitting
there alone
not knowing what had happened

i shouted loudly to u
coz u were a distance away



hope u understand
i d i d n t mean t o . . .

hope u get w e l l soon
dont be too sad

12:06 AM
today went to see doctor
due to ma rashes that started to develop ard ma mouth

maskin is:-
dry
peeling
uncomfortable











the doctor gave 8 simple r u l e s . - - for con



rule numberONE.-
a) cannot eat fruits with sap in chop form
b) must ask someone to shop for me
3) den blend it and
4) den drink in with a straw in liquid form.
*the fruit cannot touch ma rashes

rule numberTWO.-
must wear gold jellwery
cannot wear silver
coz silver contains nickel which can cause a allergy

rule numberTHREE.-
cannot suck on sweets

rule numberFOUR.-
cannot peel skin

rule numberFIVE.-
cannot lick lips

rule numberSIX.-
cannot kiss people

rule numberSEVEN.-
must marry a rich man [ rule numberEIGHT explains why]

rule numberEIGHT.-
cannot do housework
as ma rashes cant get in contact with detergent . . . etc
hence i am excuse from housework

so that explainas rule numberSEVEN.-
the doctor say i must marry a rich man
so that he can hire a maid for me
to do the housework.
HAHA!!

ahya

actually cherie*mummy n i were toking
actually dont need maid la
get a house-husband lo!!

HAHA!!

*LOL

i was given like 3 packets of medication n a 3 in one cream
may it work its wonders.-

11:08 PM
con is sorry for talking so much

if i have hurt anyone in the process
i am sorry for being harsh

con will learn to control ma big mouth . . .
















iamreally sorry.-

10:43 AM
life as a backslider

praying to God on the surface : paying lipservice
[[ not meaning it in the heart]]

living in own world

not wanting to change for the better
not wanting to confess sin
not wanted to repent
doing things that doesnt please God
keep procrastinating to go back to God

life without God is really awlful-

con please go back to God


11:19 PM

dont be too straightforward

it hurts-

dont push the limit of jokes

it hurts just as bad

12:12 AM
i have to be more c a l m and l o v i n g . . .

<3

and be a better C H R I S T I A N and a good testimony for CHRIST!!












it is never too late for new year resolutions for con la

con ' s new year resolutions
*be a better C H R I S T I A N - ) ) *
*do quiet time
*don pon church
*spread the gospel
*be a better friend
*lose ma baba
*eat less
*exercise more
*obey ma daddy chong and mummy chong
*learn less bad words
*do ma homework
*listen more and talk less
*get new handphone
*need a fashion consultant
*need a image consultant - anyone interested?!
*more clothes!!
*more accessories
*control ma spending

*to forget him

[[hmm will add more to the list when i think of more along the way la . . . ]]- ]]*

nitex for now

-waves!!

1:53 PM
anyone need a househusband?!

want to know more ?

scroll down to read more about him

:]
















he - ))*
-*filial to parents [[ so your parents will be happy ]]
-*clean [[ cant stand dirt ]]
-*very hardworking
-*willing to look after all your children while u work
-*very specialize in mopping
-*currently taking his masters at the school of chores
-*can cook healthy food or anything. [[ his spaghetti dam rox ]]
-*can exercise with you
-*can club - can pei u go clubbing when u want to go out n let down your hair
[[but better to BEWARE !! rather AGGRESSIVE!! ]]

bonus- ))*
*has six pacx


interested?!
give me a call

i take early booking . . .

:]

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12:45 PM
yes yes con baba is here to update again . . .

28th to 31th dec
OTC

before start camp

*shifu tell con camp will be dam fun la.

so i went
before camp met neon peeps for lunch
den off we went for camp

woohooo!! i got into same grp as
mummy*cherie!!
kaisheng
jodin
alan
derry
yeen shian!!

neon peeps!!

neon rox!!~

meet another neon-nite also
name dawn
eyes dam big!! wahaha

anyway

i got into the grp call centis!!!

The group iz fun la!!
N dam fast at organizing things man!!
Our performance nite dam rox!!!

N at the last day we got first!!! Woohoo!!

Shake buttx!!

After this training camp
Actually I have learned a lot of lessons

*respect - others when they are leading n respect their decision
*trust - your grp members
*more of a follower - con am more of a follower den leader - I think I still haf a lot to learn abt being a leader
*feelings - con when leading must consider other grps member feelings
*leadership - con when went for the interview say i hope to lead more abt being a leader in this camp i must say seriously i have really learn alot
*voice - con voice can shout for three days
*tofu- con loves eggtofu!!

*really hope that even after the camp
centis can still bond tgt
and when fow/foc comes
n all of us hopefully can make it

we will make it the best empire ever!!
N be first again!!!!

woohoo!!~

*though our group may haf things that we do not agree on but in the end we are after all CENTIS!!






* * *
one last thing
when u fall in love with something
and it has fill up your heart

<3
one thing is for sure
it can never be replaced again
cause u have found the best thing in the world
and nothing can be better than it . . .